Fiction Fears, YDN
hate it when teachers think you’re ill/upset/in a bad mood, just because you’re quiet…
evamarieuh:It’s funny how I am constantly running away from my thoughts.
If I sit still for too long I start remembering every mistake I’ve ever made in my life. It’s exhausting. More exhausting than working or running around with friends or being active without any sleep. Today, though, I’m drifting between thoughts of “should I do that?” and worrying about everybody else’s feelings and trying to decide what I want. Amongst all of this, I catch myself daydreaming, imagining my future. In a strange way, it’s relaxing, because I see comfort in my future but I can’t quite make out the details.
I keep picturing a lightly colored room with big windows. I see a white comforter, big fluffy pillows, and a cozy little rug on the floor. I see natural light streaming through the open window with the light blue curtains softly dancing by way of the breeze. The room has a comforting scent of flowers— not roses, maybe tulips or something. I don’t even know what tulips smell like. I see soft colored art on the wall, hints of yellows and blues, I can’t quite make out what it actually looks like. I see a big mirror with an intricate frame and I hear some Dan Mills music playing quietly. It somehow feels warm and cool at the same time and most of all, it feels fresh. I want to dive into that welcoming bed and soak up the atmosphere of that room. I want to stare at the art on the wall and feel the breeze from that open window on my face. I want to be there.
I’m not sure if daydreaming is supposed to be endearing or if it’s pathetic, but it is somehow providing me with comfort and optimism despite how much of a mess I’ve found myself in during this current chapter of my life.
I guess it’s the little things that get us through the day, even if we create the little things in our dreams.
She didn’t say it, I only thought she said it. So really it was my thought, my words, and not hers. How could I confuse “I love you” with “May I take your order?
❤ in love with a man named --> Kean Edward U. Cipriano